Yup. Going to try this meat thing for a couple of months and see where it takes me. Chicken still tastes really weird to me right now. I cannot get over the texture. An interesting journey, for sure…

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Things have been weird lately. A huge part of me is starting to really regret leaving the bay. It used to only be a little part of me, but it just keeps growing. And last night, I caught myself saying outloud, “I regret my descsion to leave the bay.” I just thought things would be different I guess. Mind you, I left on the premise that my family would be here and that I would get to hang out with my long time friends. I was so lonely in the bay, because I didn’t have this. But now, I feel as if I am in the exact same situation, so it made no sense to leave at all. 

My family has moved to CT, and, well, I haven’t really seen much of my ‘friends’. My best friend is so busy with school and work (both full time), and on top of that she has a boyfriend. I am so happy for her, and I absolutely think she is making the right decisions for her life. It just sucks that I don’t ever get to see her anymore. I feel sort of empty. The other friends I have in the state I just feel so different from. I don’t want to sit around and drink beer. I want to go traveling with friends, do things outdoors, and have adventures. I just feel so different from everyone as of late.

At the same time though, it’s no secret that I have changed. Vegas proved to me that I’ve outgrown my high school friends. Not in a negative way, but let’s face it, the past is the past and sometimes it is just better to move on. Especially when you are trying to be the person you have become. I guess my point is that I feel like I am in the same place that I was when living in the bay. 

So what do I do? Do I make new friends? Where do I even start with that? How DO I make new friends and begin to meet people that share similar interests as me? Just an all around frustrating situation. I know in a couple of years I will find myself on the east coast, but until then, what?

January 2012 - Became a vegetarian

February - Started running regularly

March 2012 - Started working out at the gym

May 2012 - Started eating clean

June 2012 - Went to Paris

July 2012 - Left the bay area for Arizona

December 2012 - Turned 25 and had my first trip to Vegas

It’s been a pretty great year. I have grown so much and my personality seems to have done a complete 180. I am so much more positive and just overall happy and confident. I attribute this to my healthy lifestyle change. This year has probably been one of my favorite years thus far. I have always wanted to change my lifestyle and ‘get fit’. I totally accomplished everything I set out to. And, as of December 31st, 2012, I can proudly say that I am still a vegetarian and I am working out regularly. I have also become a runner, something I never (NEVER) thought I could ever do. In February I could only run about three blocks. Now I can run for an hour + without stopping. I have found life through running and eating healthy, and I just couldn’t be happier.

With all of this being said, my trip to vegas gave me some harsh insight to the person I have become, and the person I have left behind (in a good way). In short, I have outgrown some of my friends that I have had since high school. The positive person I have become no longer meshes with negativity and bad attitudes, and I have learned that it’s just time to let go. I will always remember these girls in my life, and all the crazy and good times we have shared. But it’s time to move on and let go in 2013.

I am excited to see what the new year will bring me. My goal as of May 2012 was to be physically where I want to be in my body’s journey in 1 years time. So I have until May 2013. Though the journey will not end there. My goal as of January 2012 was to try vegetarianism for 1 year, and at the end of the year evaluate how I felt and if I wanted to continue in to 2013. I can gladly say, I will continue being a vegetarian in to 2013. I want to have a huge impact on the environment, and this is the best way to do it. Plus I have so much energy, no more stomach pains, no acne, and I have not been sick once.

My goal for next year is to travel more. Simple as that. I am thinking I would like to attend the London tattoo convention as well as plan another trip to vegas. I also have a goal of visiting the bay every 3 months.

I hope you all enjoy ringing in the new year! And no matter 2012 brought you, good or bad, may you move on to a new journey in 2013. No regrets. We are who we are because of what we have been through. 

Happy 2013!

Today I learned how to say ‘please’.

пожалуйста

:)